REALIZING DOLLAR DREAMS OR MY OWN DREAMS!!!!

DOLLAR DREAMS!!!!!

I watched it when I was in college and that was almost 8 years back. Young enough that I didnt even know or realize what it was all about.

Having watched this movie again, my perception of DOLLAR DREAMS has truly changed and how different it is when compared to the first time I watched it. So what has changed now and then????

- I realized what a parent would feel for his/her child.
- I realized how important it is to understand them and what they go through at this old age.
- I realized what they would need or expect from their own children.
- I realized that they are not my parents anymore, but they are my own children.

Now how I realized this all of a sudden. There wasnt any eye opening incident at once, but this was something I realized over a period of time. Now I believe I completely realized what I ought to realize.

I have had my chances of settling down on the land of dreams or it is so called. Only destiny didnt let me take that option and now I look back at that and completely understand why I have to call it destiny.

This is in no way an attempt to hurt the feelings of all the people around who are not with their parents. They choose their destiny and I did mine. This is purely an attempt to put down a few of my thoughts. Being a FATHER to a FATHER and a SON at the same time is not something every one can be capable of being or fortunate enough to be in this busy world.

Now any share of happiness wouldnt come without its share of troubles. Would it?? They both are like two sides of the coin and one will have to live with the both. How fortunate I am that I got someone in my life who supports me all along despite loosing her share of happiness. Even she has her own dreams about her parents too. Unfortunately our INDIAN SYSTEM of family life has defined its set of rules. I only wish to get over that one day and let her have to play her role of being a MOTHER to her parents.

We as children on whom GOD has bestowed HIS blessings in the form of parents are realizing what we are running away from???

Or we do realize it and still run away from it??

Gift of God!!! - Sam Baby

Oct 1st, 2009 - 5:15 PM...
Place: Area Hospital, Godavarikhani, A.P

After struggling with labor pains for almost two full days, Doctors decided that they will do the operation for my wife to get the baby out...I didn’t hesitate either and signed the papers...Seeing my love bearing all that pain is really not something I wanted to see...

5:35 PM...
My wife is taken inside the operation theatre...doors closed...anxious moments...typical filmy style. I was actually looking if there was any red light glowing above the door...ha ha...Since it’s the same hospital where my Mom-In-Law works, it was easy getting access and she was allowed inside the theatre..but then waiting outside is still agonizing, peeping through the glass if someone will come outside and give some good news, walking restlessly, reciting countless Our Father - Hail Mary - Glory be s....it’s everything..

6:03 PM...
That’s the time when my baby was born....those 30 minutes were the longest minutes ever in my life….One of the aunt’s came out and told me that it’s a boy baby...Wowwwwww..I wasn’t expecting that…I immediately called my father who was in Bangalore and told him the news and I could hear him and the rest of the family members shouting and jumping around with joy...truly they are the best moments ever.....

6:10 PM...
The baby was brought out of the theatre and wrapped in a cloth...I couldn’t wait anymore….If not for the doors, I was almost pushing them to take a look at my son...the first look of my baby....(I regret not taking a snap at that very moment)...the joy in my heart made me forget everything around...I was just looking at him and the first touch...Only a father can understand that touch...felt very similar to the first touch of my baby's kick while in my wife's stomach....

The next few hours passed by very quickly and I was busy calling friends, relatives all around the world to share the happiest news of my life...When my wife was later shifted to a room, and the baby next to her...I was only thanking God for the wonderful gift He has given us....that’s when I took some of my son's pictures..

Here is my baby's first picture:

While in hospital:

I took leave for 10 days and I could take good care of my wife and son…Definitely not without the help of my Mom-in-Law…All went well and after 7 days my wife is discharged from the hospital and then I had to come back to Bangalore for work, only to go back the next week itself for my son’s baptism ceremony.

There comes the most difficult part. Choosing a name is the toughest of all and the amount of efforts, interest I had to put in to choose one, had I put in at the least half of it during my engineering days; I would have easily scored more than 70%...Finally closed on the first name as Sam meaning answer to prayers and the second name was still a big question mark…But later selected it as Abhiswaroop…I only hope years later when my son grows up, he won’t question me why this different name…After all I don’t think it’s too different either…Puthota Sam Abhiswaroop…

Christening of baby in the Church as Sam Abhiswaroop with his God Parents - Steve n Vijji


He is 2 months old now, already over-turning and also giving sleepless nights to my wife, yeah I know I should get used to them too. I only got couple of days to spend with my wife and son later and I can’t wait anymore to get them both back to Bangalore. My Dad already completed the decoration of the house for X-Mas and I spent almost a complete day cleaning the room, of course not to miss mentioning about my Wife’s repeated reminders…Life is never going to be the same for me, but the feeling of holding your child in your arms is definitely the best a Man as a father can ever feel...


Thank you God and my love...

Love you Son...

Playing with Daddy:


With Mamma:

Now dont scold me Mamma..I am a good boy..:) :)

I can make the best faces around:

My first poem!!!

Can you believe it..I actually composed a poem..I wont call it a poem, but something different from the regular usage language....I preferred to write it in my mother tounge telugu.....
here it goes...

Eda ninda nee patla prema....

naa manasunu nimishamina niluva niyyada....

aa prema sheera sagara madhanam yandali amrutam la

pellubiki piki egajimmuta nantu...

hrudayamandu tiyyati bhada kalugajeyunela...

idi kaada viraha vedana...

yela naku ee edabatu kshoba...

nannu vidichi vellitivi yela....

ninnu kalava bovu samayam koraki nireekshistu.....

Needless to say its about my wife...but I felt good about myself writing this....

Not too bad for a beginner I guess...
My friends asked me for a english translation. Well I try to make it sound as easy it can be..

my heart full of love for you...

not letting me to be at peace even for a minute..

just like the way amrita came out while churning the milky ocean...

my love for you is spilling out and causing sweet pain in my heart..

isnt this called the pain of staying away from the loved one...

why did u go away from me...

longing for the moment I am going to meet you again...

this entire translation looks really funny to me...:) :)

One year of marriage life!!!!!

One year of marriage life!!!! whoa...too many experiences...

good and bad...
bonding for each other...
responsibilities....
taking care of each other..
being sensitive to each other's feelings....

what not..its everything....

I realized my path for the rest of my life in this year...
I came to know how should we act according to the situation, such that it wont go out of control....
I also felt the utmost need to give importance to certain things which are really important than many other so called materialistic things in the world....

well well....thats not my way of describing it anyway...So I will keep myself limited to what I want to put down here...

first things first....I was not really worried about missing couple of things after marriage...I always felt that I will be a good husband....but there are couple of things which I need to correct myself...as Siddarth says in the movie Bommarillu, you will need to give them what they need to be happy...but things apart my wife is really understanding and adjusted in every possible way....be it staying away from hyderabad or staying in blore without me for 2 months....etc..etc....

Above all this, the most important thing that developed amongnt us is the love for each other...I was little worried about how I would take forward our relationship and develop it...I could do it well..thanks a ton to my wife for making me feel comfortable in whatever way I can....I cannot believe that within a year, I love my wife more than anything and she is all I think about almost all the time....especially when she is not around...thats what they call bonding of marriage I guess...

I did wish to do many things on our first anniversary, but due to different reasons what so ever I had to keep it simple...nevertheless..I spent the entire day (literally 24 hrs) with my wife in the most fitting way I could do within my limits.......

As we both move on to the 2nd year of our marriage life and expecting another addition to our family soon (yeah that makes me thrilled), I wish to continue this way and yeah I promised to myself that I will fullfil couple of important things my wife has asked me for....

Love you baby.....

Fatherhood!!!

Married almost an year back and now going to become a father....How does it feel like????

Well to put it down simply that getting married is one of the best things that ever happened in my life and becoming a father so soon is something that's exciting me more than anything....yeah more than the much anitcipated Schumi's return...I just cannot compare that with anything....

the very moment I got to know that I am going to become a father..I was so happy and my heart was pounding with full joy while sharing the news with my parents....ironically I had to leave on the same night to US and leaving my wife in such a state is something I will never expect to do in future again...those two months in US were sort of really sick and I was longing to get back home...

Here I come back home and took my wife to hospital for regular scan....there I saw my baby for the first time...moving around slowly, all parts falling into shape....I could feel it in my heart..MY BABY....the next time the first feel of the baby kicking inside my wife's stomach....I just cannot express the feeling how I felt at that very moment....

Everyone say that GOD is more selfish towards woman...I agree with that...they are more beautiful and above all they have this best share of giving birth to someone just like GOD created ADAM...when the slightest of the touch could make me feel so joyous, then how does it feel like carrying the baby in yourself..someone getting into life inside you.....I feel little jealous at times about this that I dont have that share...ok...feelings apart I guess Men are lucky not having to go through that pain..its painful and sad looking at my wife struggling with the baby inside....Mixed feelings eh???

Lately we went for another scan and its almost end of 8th month for my wife and now we could see the baby more clearly....the face, nose, lips, cheeks, hands, legs.....I saw the baby opening its mouth and closing....I was so happy....I just cant wait anymore to hold the baby in my hands....

I dont regret at all for the things which I am surely going to miss once my baby is born and I
have very much prepared myself that I will take care of my baby at all times and I promise to be the best father......

"Your father is waiting for you darling to give the best you will need in your life..."

Thank you GOD for the wonderful gift that you are going to give us...

and yeah..thanks to my another baby..yeh..my wife....

My First Blog

Okkk.....Its been many years that I first heard about blogging, but was never interested in creating one for myself.
So why now????
Off late I have been reading too many blogs and this made me to give it a shot...One fine boring day in office....
Why not???
Then comes the thought how to make up the first blog or for what I should write a blog..
What now???
I realized then that the very essence of blogging is to write about one's ownself....A forum to put down all the shit/crap I felt/am feeling/ 'll feel. Whatever way you call it....

THIS IS MY BLOG......

- I will put down my political views..
- I will write about my interests..(IPL is interesting, TAKEN movie is good, Waiting for DanBrown's new work)..
- I will talk on Formula One....(yeh..Miss u Schuey...Go Kimi Go...get it right..)
PHEW!!! Getting bored writing about what I want to do here...makes me think about my year end appraisal..SELF APPRAISING is sooooooo damn boring....

My friends think that I can make the best MOJITO they tasted ever and they also say that I talk a lot with my hands....
My colleagues believe that there is nothing I think about in a decent way...yeah..I enjoy AJs....
My family thinks that I am a very responsible fellow..which I am anyway.... ;)
My wife thinks that I am no where near romantic, but I think I am romantic in my own way...views apart we both know that our love for each other is beyond everything...

So welcome to my WORLD.....